Dec 2007.. after a week got married to a hubby..mama force me to further my study in UiTM Kedah.. and that time i thought that was a stupid idea mama ever gave... i dont know why mama have to seperated me with mazran... we were just newly wed!!!.. mama dont want me to go to private college since it gonna cost a lot of money.. .
first three month in Kedah.. mama got a lot of phone calls from me.. complained about everything in kedah.. from a huge problems.. to the smallest one.. mcm " tilam x cukup tebal"...tapi mama x berganjak dari keputusan dia... no matter what happen.. i still have to continued my study there!!!.. the whole semester one.. from january till april.. my heart full of hated.. hated mama..
i spent my first semester break.. wondered any alternative that availabe to avoid me from continue in kedah.. i seriously cant live without mazran that time.. in fact i was pregnent.. and i unconditionally need mazran always beside me.... but then.. no choice other than to beg mama send me to private college in KL.. but mama will never make a step of her decision.. then again.. i continue my second semester with tears.. hated.. and bla.. bla...
the way i felt in second semester is differ than what i felt in first semester. maybe because i found that myself was adaptable with friends and enviroment in there..
I dont spent much time in Kedah during second semester.. coz mase tue nak deliver Benjamin.. so i've got leave.. datng untuk final exam aje...
And last semester.. hmm this one was tough.. being away from my son.. Benjamin.. and being away from mazran.my hubby.. i guess the feeling of being away from Benjamin was greater.. Kedah seem like hell to me in third semester... i was dying to go back to KL every weekend just to see Benjamin.. i was traumatize of losing Benjamin.. because he was out of my sight... a lot of thing played inside my mind during third semester... i was half insane.. and it all happened because i miss Benjamin so much.. Benjamin is like the air that i breath.. and i was drowned in Kedah...it was hurt.. really hurt..
But then.. on April 2009. .. around 22 days before final exam... i started to realized.. i love my friends in Uitm.. I love my house.. i love foods in Kedah... and i love memories in kedah...
and the last day before most of my friends going back home.. we spent our last momment together.. i hang out with people i never ever hang out with.. like the guys in my class... and i spent my last momment with them... happy!.. very happy!
I dont know why i have this feeling right now.. but i guess i miss my friends so very much... and i miss my memories in Kedah... tapi....... rasanya x naklah balik kedah lagi untuk repeat.. hehehehhe..
Wish dapat jumpa kawan2 lagi di Uitm Shah Alam nanti.... InshaAllh
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