The hardest thing i ever did in my life is being away from my baby..
Sebelum nie.. benjamin ada kat dalam perut.. so wherever i go.. benjamin akan sentiasa ada dengan i kt dlm perut.. but then suddenly benjamin dah x ada.. and my perut dan kempis.. i sangat2 rasa kehilangan benjamin when he is not here with me...
I couldnt see people hold a baby.. i couldnt see other people's kid.. and i couldnt even stand to hear people asking about my baby.. while benjamin is not with me.. life had been so hard for me this time... and i am soo down now..
the reason why i have to leave my baby to my mother in law and my husband back in KL.. because i have final exam to handle in Sungai Petani.. cant concentrate to take care of benjamin... but leave benjamin with other people for 12 days.. will be something that i will regret for the rest of my life...
being away from benjamin means that i will miss his smile.. i will miss his geliat2.. the way he sleep.. how he cry for milk.. i will miss a lot of things.. and the worst is.. i will miss how he grow up... too bad.. sometimes i feel like i am fail as a mother.. i couldnt be there for my kid...
There was time when i really want leave my final exam and repeat it next year.. there was time when i do really feel like want to run to KL.. i miss to hug my baby.. i want to kiss him and sleep next to him.. but the thing is.. too many things i have to consider.. especially my mum.. study in sungai petani was my mum's idea.. and if quit.. or repeat it.. it will hurt her so much.. and i dont to hurt her.. not even close.. soo.. she always be the reason why i stand strong here...
What my benjamin doing now??? i miss him like hell.. arghhhh...
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