MY Baby will always be with me

Tomorrow.. going back to Terengganu.. berdebar2 rasanya

Terengganu memang best... sbb ada ramai orang.. tapi gombak lagi best coz ada my hubby.. sy cuba bagi tahu my hubby.. a best place that our son and sy should be is with him..

Kalau boleh sy memang x sanggup nak berpisah dengan hubby.. tapi nak buat mcm mana.. my mama paksa sy gi belajar kat sungai petani.. oh well that;s something that i'm not gonna forvige for the rest of my life..

no one ever know how my life was like.. even till now me and mazran couldnt build our own family.. we couldnt live as one family.. coz selalu jauh2.. ada cuti baru jumpa.. and then berpisah balik.. seksa hidup mcm nie.. oh well.. people wont understand..

satu benda yang buat saya takut nak balik Terengganu esok.. adalah kemungkinan people gonna separate me with my son.. orang akan datang rumah.. and tengok baby.. bawak baby ke sana dan ke sini.. and cakap baby shouldnt stay with his mommy.. coz nanti mommy dia nak gi belajar.. kene tinggal.. so mcm kene belajar tinggallah baby skarang.. i know people will talk with like that.. i mentioned about my ketakutan to my husband.. oh well. nk buat mcm mane.. he cant do anything either..

Sy MEMANG X BOLEH HIDUP TANPA ANAK SAYA.. yes sy tahu susah nk jaga anak.. have anyone ever said jaga anak ni senang???.. tapi sy sanggup susah..at least anak saya ada dengan sy..SY PERCAYA TEMPAT TERBAIK ANAK ADALAH DENGAN MAK DIA.. baby baru keluar and want to know the world.. and i wanna be the only person who stand beside him and show him the world..

I want to be with him.. all the times. sbb sy rasa itulah seorang mak perlu buat.. yes sy ada hidup sy.. sy perlu belajar and so one.. tapi that doesnt mean sy perlu lupakan anak sy.. sy percaya Allah SWT x akan bagi sy anak ini.. kalau DIA tahu sy x dapat nk handle anak sy sendiri.. Allah SWT Maha Mengetahui.. sy pasti ada hikmah di sebaliknya.. no matter what happen in this world.. MY BABY WILL ALWAYS BE WITH ME!