missing my old times...

today.. israk mikraj... so kedah cuti.. and i am bored.. no mood for studying.. and lying on the bed and staring at the ceiling and flash back the memories i used to have before... my memories when i am with my friends...

well.. yes i do miss my friends.. i'm kind of person who easily appriciate people who came into my life.. if you be nice to me.. i'll be a million times nice to you.. that
's my type.. and if you dont... or if you're a kind of person who just be nice to me for something.. that i will felt like wanna shout straight to your face.. that i hate you so much... oh well.. i just dont have the gut...

people cames and go.. my friends.. have their own life... and i have mine.. since i am married now.. so.. a lot of limitation had been add up to my life.. i'm no free like a bird anymore.. yerlah.. dah jadik isteri orang katakan.. my bestfriend would be my husband.. hahahaha...

whatever it is.. do miss a time when i spent times with my friends... hmmm if you people see me now.. you will see me as someone who is introvert.. or close minded.. or.. kampung.. ..skema.. budak baiklah katakan..hahaha.. but to tell ya the truth.. i do have my social life.. and i do have my extraordinary social life.. before.. something that sometimes make me sit and wonder how can i go that far.. oh well.. some people do get young... hahahahaha..

if i compared my family to mazran family.. well my family are more social lah. yerlah my mum is business women.. and masuk persatuan itu ini.. so people always came to our house.. for us.. everyone is our friends.. and mum thought me to be nice and ikat silaturrahim with other.. and i guess that's why.. sy nie walaupun peringkat paling teruk/susah berkawan dengan manusia.. i do have friends.. and i do get married...

tapi mazran family.. x adalah social mane.... mcm rumah sy.. x putus2 datang orang kat umah.. almost everyday.. ada kawan/saudara mara datang... x pernah sunyi umah saya.. mak sy pun x suka umah sunyi.. jadik umah hantu..hahaha.. hmm.. so bila kahwin dengan mazran.. sy punya social life pun dah menurun.. sy pun x naklah jadik isteri yang lawan suami.. suami x berkawan mane.. tapi isteri mengatal kawan sana sini...so me and my friends.. just contact melalui phone.. or kadang2 jumpa.. and i do miss my old times...

skrang di uitm.. hardly to find someone that i can call my friends.. mostly just people that i would like to call.. someone that i know.. not that they are not nice.. they are nice..but i'm just not comfortable with them.. i have a different view about life... and they just dont share the thing.. maybe because most of them.. semua childish kot..hahaha.. tapi rasa sy.. kawan2 sy dulu2 lagi childish.. but they tend to know when is the right time to get serious.. hmmmm....

lastly.. just nk cite.. i do miss my old times.. nk isap shisha.. nk lepak kat hartamas.. nk carik hantu kat highland tower... nk jejak kaki kat club(.. hahahah.. tipu aje).. nk gi tengok2 orang shuffle.. nk.. lepak2 kat kedai mamak.. (bukan buat apa2 pun.. just menikmati angin malam sambil cakap2)... x seronoklah menikmati angin siang2 yang panas2.. nie..

i have those memories not to show off to people that i do have life.. coz no matter how you live that's your life.. there is no such thing like if you have a social life... means you do have a life... i did not proud of what i did in my life.. especially when i did those crazy thing.. i love to do all those stuff.. mcm lepak2.. isap shisha.. sbb that's the way i love to enjoy my life..hahahaha....